The Problem is me

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The problem is not the problem, but the problem is your attitude about the problem..

Captain Jack Sparrow said..


“The problem is not them but yours” one of the person who I loved said to me. Emotionaly of course, its broke my heart. I just silent, no talk, just quit.

She is right, absolutly, I am a asshole. The man who cant control his emotion, the man with all of his weakness.

Sad..? yes, very sad ofcourse. I have think about this, she was right. What can I do? The people around me was more asshole than me. Could be they was change me?

I don’t know, maybe yes and maybe not.

What should I do to be normal, to be my self..? I am alone, no one can understand me. If I try to talk with person who I think will be understand me. There was end with pain, I become a looser in he or she face. They loved it, like it. Continue reading


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One of my friend has told me that, there was a few thing cant you control on deep in your self. One of them was desire. That feelings was natural, every living creature have it. Animals and Plants have it, and of course human also have it.

This kind was our need, every human want it. In modern life, there was no reason to not enjoy it. But in traditional society, there was sacral ritual before you do that. Its pure, holy, and sacred. You must be a good person before do that, have a personality, ready for a new life and new responsibilty, and many else. There was not just a sex activity, but the pure and holy relationship between two person and two family.

But now, in this time. Sex was one of the habit in this life, very terrible for me, because I am the East Man become from the conservative background. Here in east, sex was a prohibited thing to talk and of course its illicit to do before married. Continue reading

Me & You

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Read the other blog’s make me shame of my self
You have a good & nice blog, and inspiration post
The theme also beautiful

Than I did
Not good enough
cant we compare with yours

Just a nice and bad blog’s
hate it
love it

I try to be better,

wish I can Continue reading

In My Weakness

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So sad on every view

So long on every moment

So hurt on every step


On My Fragile

Its open for an attack

Its open for every strike

Its open for any bad thing



No place for a weak man

No place for a looser

No place for a gentle

No place for an honest


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Full of competition

be The Best for every day

Attacking each other Continue reading

Attention Please

imagesAttention please..

If there someone who can you ask to do anything..

Please him to my place..

I want him to replace my place..

Attention Please

If there someone who have good looking,

Ready smile,




A leader ship spirit,

or anything positif like that

Please you tell me.. Continue reading